Thursday, 21 February 2013

A blue suitcase

A blue middle-sized suitcase, placed on the sofa and waiting to be filled, is a constant reminder that he is leaving soon. Things, mostly clothes, are piling up around it, waiting to be folded in. He will probably start putting things in sometime soon and I’ll watch quietly, trying hard not to tell him how to do it. In the end he’ll figure out that I’m better at this than he is and I’ll throw everything out and carefully place everything back, just the way it was supposed to be, because I know how to do it properly.

The hour when the phone will ring and his brother will tell him that he’s on his way here to pick him up is closer and closer. I’m not happy about it even though I know that he’s excited. It’s not that I don’t want him to go, or that I’m not happy for him. It’s just… I’m already missing him. Knowing that the blue suitcase will soon be gone… knowing that the apartment will soon be quiet and empty… knowing that in the evening I’ll go to bed alone and that no one will be hugging me in the morning… knowing all this is killing me.

I try not to look at the suitcase and I try hard not to think of the moment when I’ll be left alone. I want to take advantage of every moment spent with him, remember every word and smile. But no matter how hard I try I can’t change the fact that I’m already thinking of the moment when he’ll come back and we’ll empty the blue suitcase together and put it away until one of us, or, preferably, both, leaves again.

24 comments:

  1. It's one of the worst things; when someone you love goes away. I hope time goes quickly for you, and he's back before you know it.

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    1. Thanks for commenting Dicky. :) That is one of the worst things, indeed.

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  2. lovely piece. I can see you there folding or just letting your mind wonder.

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  3. Love is as difficult to grasp as learning to pack a suitcase properly. Lovely post :)

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  4. Before you know it he'll be back. He'll bring you pretty stuff, he'll make up for the lost week and tell you how Texas actually isn't the place for him - not without you there anyway. :)

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    1. Thank you so much for your lovely comment. :)

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  5. Enjoyed this post very much. There have been times when Mr. 2Half or I have traveled without the other, you captured the spirit of the moment perfectly. Be sure to do a follow up post when he gets back. Something tells me poor suitcase won't have been pack nearly so well for the return trip!

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    1. You were right, the suitcase was a mess. :)

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  6. Nice post. Liked the way you kept looking at the suitcase while thinking of him leaving and getting back. There is a very old saying: "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." . . .You made me think of it.

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  7. Dobradan! I'm Slovenian too! Well I was born in Canada but my mother was born in Slovenia and I have lots of family there. I'm enjoying your blog. Hope you'll check out mine ;-)

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    1. Thank you for your comment, I'll check out your blog. :)

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  8. Nice post, Starlight! I hope he's already back. I'm way behind on my blog reading. Did somebody above say he was going to Texas? I wonder which part, and did he get to enjoy our crazy blizzard?

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    1. Thanks Nessa. :) Yes, he was in Corpus Christi, Texas so he avoided the blizzard.

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  9. Starlight! I found you! I hope you'll remember me. I used to have a blog called The Silver Lining, but got rid of it a year or two ago. I just started a new one, called One Line at a Time. A poetry blog. I have been trying to find people whose blogs I used to love. So glad I found you! Now following. Feel free to check out my new blog. :)

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  10. I miss your writing, Lovely! The Blue Suitcase, I can almost see it

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